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psychology
Feed the Fish
It’s just Fear, I tell myself
The dynamics of my own mind
Keeping me in the tall glass tower
Thunderous Fear words booming through my flimsy glass walls
Shaking me
Threatening breaking me
All the fishes in the pond below have gone
They done swam away
‘Cause Fear had His say
And I have to admit that I’m afraid
Ego petrified
Exposed through these glass walls
Do they see me?
Will they eat me?
Or hate me?
Or beat me?
Or treat me like a leper?
What insult will be thrown my way today?
How will I be maligned —
Vomited on by a Better Kind
Oh, the sad dynamics of my own mind
It’s just Fear I say
Just Fear so you can either
Walk out the tall glass door or stay
It’s just a choice you make
With crumbs of food in my trembling hands
I close the door behind me and feed the fishes
Calling to them,
“There, there, “ I say, “It is safe.”
It was just Fear.
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Unwise
We danced around with blinded eyes
Seeking like we do in youth that
Elusive serum we call Truth
Unreachable until we’re wise
And wisdom don’t set in so soon
Wisdom comes from a million tries
Or, perhaps, a million-two
Heaven on Earth is only gained
When you’ve learned the lesson in the pain
And not just said, “It’s hard, I quit”
Nor let your bitter keep you bit
But dive — heart-first! — right into it
Dig up all the Masters teach
Watch the ego’s trickery
Which leads you to a wishing well
Of good intentions, yes — paved to hell
There is no skipping steps, you see
There is no more poor me, poor me
It’s time to wake, unblind your eyes
A fool alone will claim she’s wise
So pick up that big cross you dropped
‘Cause darling
You gotta few more tries…
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Ashes on the Floor
I think I love you
In a way love should never be
For there is a thing as Too Much Heat
Burns up our touch on Reality
Then there’s no place to return to
When the fire dies down
Like fires do
There’s a mad dash out the door
Inevitably
And frankly, it don’t matter if it’s you or me
One of us will have to run away
Fantasy something humans can’t sustain
What would it be like to learn to love the steady flame?
‘Stead of craving this insane raging heat
The Energy in you that brings me to my knees
But here we are, Combusting
I was a fool to think either of us can leave
Blissfully trapped in scorching chemistry
Ignited by other-worldly sparks
The kind that die out as quickly as they burst and flash
And set our silly souls ablaze
Incinerating…
Incinerating…
We find ourselves
In ashes on the floor.
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The Unseen
Something grows, imperceptibly
The Great Ones speak of Liminal Space and
The World of the Unseen
Where so many things are happening
Tell me about your world-view
Does it include the Truth of the Unseen
The beauty of the unscientific mystery
Science a wonderful thing indeed
But always tending to catch up with the spiritual views
— The guru’s truths —
— The real-world magic that can’t always be proved —
Until sometimes it is and then everyone jumps in
Having scoffed at Faith as if it were a weakness
“You need something to cling to”
Oh darling, as if I had not clung and then thrown it all away to Seek
— To disbelieve —
— To question everything —
There are two kinds of faith
Blind and Experiential
Funny how in my own life
Experiential led to Blind
Oh, to experience the Numinous
— The luminous —
I am sad for all those who do not see
Who cannot believe
Who pity me
Make no mistake
I do not pity them
Nor do I devalue their experience
It is their Truth, equally
Oh, but I must confess I do wish for them
This beautiful gift of Seeing Into All of This!
To have gone through the hell of the Quest
And come to realize that there is another transformation that exists:
Experience creates faith
But once it’s solidified inside
You no longer believe
— There is no need —
For you possess just one thing
Total, complete
Knowing
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Twisted
Trick, trick, trick
Tick tick tick
He won’t stop
‘Til He gets what He wants
Stealing all my thoughts
To twist and turn and weave
As He sees fit
Taking all clarity
Hoarding all wit
He’s like a Hawking, or Jobs or Einstein
But multiplied infinite times
Oh honey, you ain’t gonna win His game
Genius like this is Genius Insane
Trick trick trick
Tick tick tick
That great mind you think is up to it
Is proof you’ve already been Tricked
There is no up to it with a Devil like this
All that education, that intelligence
He’s just got you building a higher fence
Humming, foolishly, as you close yourself in
He’s running circles around you
Your best psychological thinking is His
He tells you “it’s projection”
He won’t let you have a thing
Don’t you know by now
He will tell you anything
Just to keep Himself going
To stop you from feeling your True Feelings
The only chance you might actually have
To not be
Tricked tricked tricked
Tick tick tick…
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A Worthy Endeavor
I feel Hope rise up, filling me
Pouring out my eyes
Gratitude bursting out of my heart
I think it just grew about three sizes
At the very same time
I feel scared shitless
Not a great word for a poem, maybe
But True
It is scary to Hope
Because it’s Dark Partner – Disappointment —
Has Crushed me more time than I can count
“Don’t hope at all, don’t feel this much…”
Some small voice begs from deep inside my soul
But the Hope is too powerful
And it flushes my entire system with this kind of warm glow
Another part of me smiling and shouting with joy
I LOVE EVERYBODY!!!!
It is so hard to not get attached to emotions like this —
To know they will change
Why is it that when we’re in the depths of despair
It feels like the pain will Never Shift
It feels like the suffering is endless
We so easily forget the small beautiful moments
Heart-aches somehow solidify more
Hook into us
Yet
When we Hope, when we Love, when we Feel Amazing
There is a voice that cautions,
“Now now – not too much…
Don’t be too happy…
The other shoe’s is about to drop…”
It’s true and false at the same time
Feelings move
That is what they do
So I come to the One Great Altar:
Allowance
Knowing I must let myself fully accept This Moment
This Joy
And, with courage, do the same for the inevitable
Other Side.
What an enormous task.
But what a worthy endeavor.
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Riding The Dragon
I am learning beyond learning
Is there such a thing?
Yes
Oh yes
Who knew the rabbit hole
Went as Deep as This?
And somewhere in my soul
I know
The Shallow of this depth
I’ve come so incredibly far
Gone further than the Great Abyss
Passed through Hell and back again
But still I know
There’s so much more than even This
A realization that borders on both
Agony and Bliss
How can it be
That going down
And in
And through
All This
Can lead back to such a tenderness
Such wonder-ness
Such awesome ness
And yet right there on the razor’s edge
Standing at the ice-pick ledge
Darkness and Insanity
Staring, bearing into me
But I have learned beyond the learning
I look right in the Black
For what have I to fear, my dears
When I’ve been to hell and back
When I’ve even travelled past!
It cannot shake me now my dears
I’m Mastering my Black
I sit right down at razor’s edge…
And have a little snack.
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One Day
One day
I will write poems about butterflies
Even though it’s been done a million times
I’ll make it feel like the very first time
I’ll write about vibrant colors like indigo and mandarin
Wax on about hot chocolate with cinnamon
I will talk about bodies of water using
Delicious descriptions
(I’ll never call a brook babbling)
I will write like I’m high on Life’s Vibes
And be able to turn mundane things
Into fields of wild ecstacy, and purple poppies
And crème brulee
And you will never again call those things mundane
One day
I will glide through each moment in flowing step
Harmonizing my feet with the energy underneath
I will know I’m on my way to the grave
And it will just be another glorious day
Another birth but no longer a slave
Oh yes I will be completely free
And I will write of it in Hope’s great name
And that you might float along with me
Flowing down the brook that’s babbling…
Oops
Well….
One day…
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WHO YOU ARE
I am an Artist
I am a Poet
I am a Powerful Force
I have loved you
Since forever
I have abandoned you
Never
I live within you
Goddess and God
Masculine and Feminine
Merged into One Beautiful Whole
But do you see it? Do you know?
Nothing can harm you when you are connected to Me
From deepest pain to highest bliss
To the Calm in between
I am the Creative Divine
Let yourself live and you will find
That I, too, am Alive
You – yes YOU – came to be
Out of the Great Universal Me
Who begs Expression through the uniqueness of you
Letting My Hands move as yours do
Never underestimate the power of The Nameless
I have given it a name, in so many forms
When you wonder what my name is, Child…
It’s yours.
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