Tried to love you a thousand times
But I gave too much of myself away
Been scrambling like a maniac
To get all those precious pieces back
Slow-going though
(And some decayed)
They tell me out of rotten things…
Yeah I’ve heard that out of death?
A brand new Something’s born again
Better than what’s left
I wonder though – about those pieces
The ones I’ve tried to grasp
And breathe life into once again
Make meaning of my past
Is it worth it when I’m so alone
While my heart just hopes and hopes
Going on and on like It don’t see
The rope around my throat
I tried to love you a thousand times
And a thousand more than that
Was I doing Love all wrong?
Have I given This for That?
I have no answers as I move
Step-by-adjective-Step
There are no fairytales, methinks
Oh, what a crushing childhood lie
No prince
Nor knight
Nor one true love
But only this lonely
“I”
Month: December 2013
Paul
I don’t know why you affect me like you do
Can’t even write yet without sobbing about you
Had three of my best friends reach out to me
Told me of your passing because they knew
They knew how I loved you
How can it be
That someone we don’t even know personally
Affects us so deeply
Touches such Humanity
That place in us all where we feel Divinity
And we felt yours
Not just the other day
When the car burst into flames
When the joy ride of your life
Took you away
No not just then
Your life was felt while you were here!
Could there be anything that matters more
Presence being felt
Just knowing you were Here meant something to me
And I only understand that from the sharp realization
That now you’re gone
I was out buying a curtain rod
Looked down at the text I got
“Paul Walker died.”
Felt my heart drop
It wasn’t about your fame or your beauty
But the light that shone through
Your humility and honesty
And blue-eyed speaking truth
And that smile
Oh that smile
That when you graced us with it
Everything else melted away
I promise I will carry it within me
Even as I ache
There will never be another smile
Quite
The same.
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