I will write in spite of that black cement wall son-of-a-bitch writer’s block
I will dream, let them come — the demonic, the erotic, the night sea journeys, the sirens, the earthquakes and alchemical pools of lakes and hot tubs, and the way I can always fly up and across the sky — get there quicker than the rest of them
I will paint – my modest, laughable pieces of art
Art that does not come easy like that one girl you can’t forget for precisely that reason
But art that comes, nonetheless, because it means something to me
Some young, simple, eager expression of my soul
I will do – because my soul Calls to me to do – to create to develop and yes,
I will be
Still, with eyes closed feeling the vibrations of the Universe shiver through my body as it circles gently and only ever so slightly, round and round and round…
I will dance, not like nobody’s watching because, hello! people are fucking watching – but I will do it anyway because that is my brave
I will kiss. I will kiss with passion and abandon and suck in that lower lip just a little bit if he lets me, and then soft, stop. Barely touching my lips to his, a whisper of a kiss…to see what he will…
I will breathe from the bottom of my spine up past the crown of my head; I will let the life force ride on my breath expanding in me like oceans of air cleansing my broken, cynical soul
I will shop. Online shop.
Because fuck, once in a while, I do like to shop online. And “mall energy” is the worst.
I will ride the waves of my vast emotions as if they were made from wings of gold I could fly upon; I will honor the highs and lows as equals because — ego aside – they are
I will love
I will love with these warm feelings that wrap their joy and compassion around me and then move outward so that they may reach you. I hope they reach you.
I will accept life as She is. There can be no other way. None of us are spared getting fucked over by Verizon at some point in life. Or AT&T. Or…eh, just pick a company.
And of course, so very, very much worse. But I will be unspared with you.
I will Open…so that I may let a love like mine find me
I will explore, and wonder, and try, and feel, and hope, and cry, and listen, sacredly
And in all of this…
I will live.