I am starting to Begin
To realize
All I have Unrealized
The things I have known
That have been shoved way down deep inside
Though prying fingers have tried to open up
The Vault in me
It stayed cemented shut
If I couldn’t get to it
You sure as hell weren’t going to
But somehow
The cement has begun to soften
Sticky now, like it wants to be
Pried open
Torn apart
Ripped open
Blown apart
Exposing fully
The human vulnerability that is
me
Heart-Throbbing in the open space
Of human community
Feeling the Everyone-Air touch my Raw Wounded soul
And very slowly
Ever-so-slowly
Begin to Know
When I am hurt again
(for that can’t be prevented)
My Greatest Strength will protect me:
My vulnerability
My ability to Feel All These Things
To move through them in my community
And know
Really Know
That though the individual journey is On My Own
I am never, ever
Alone.
And as I continue to uncover my soul
I begin to unweave
The Unrealized Me.