Paul

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I don’t know why you affect me like you do

Can’t even write yet without sobbing about you

Had three of my best friends reach out to me

Told me of your passing because they knew

They knew how I loved you

How can it be

That someone we don’t even know personally

Affects us so deeply

Touches such Humanity

That place in us all where we feel Divinity

And we felt yours

Not just the other day

When the car burst into flames

When the joy ride of your life

Took you away

No not just then

Your life was felt while you were here!

Could there be anything that matters more

Presence being felt

Just knowing you were Here meant something to me

And I only understand that from the sharp realization

That now you’re gone

I was out buying a curtain rod

Looked down at the text I got

“Paul Walker died.”

Felt my heart drop

It wasn’t about your fame or your beauty

But the light that shone through

Your humility and honesty

And blue-eyed speaking truth

And that smile

Oh that smile

That when you graced us with it

Everything else melted away

I promise I will carry it within me

Even as I ache

There will never be another smile

Quite

The same.

 

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His Laughter Stops

I flutter open now-rested eyes

Once restless from The Night last night —

The long road back

The blood-stained fight

The Devil’s laugh

His autograph

The land mines of the Dark Divine

Exploding all around me

I felt cut in half

In perilous surroundings

Carved out

Wiped out —

Like I’d never make it through

Now I wonder, evenly –

Just who underestimated who?

Blinds are drawn but light shines through

My eyes are dry

But sharpened, too

I had my gaze Set last night

Thought I’d die

Still fought my fight

I saw His lies

His claims of “Mine”

I chose not to identify

And in that choice I realized

No one can steal what’s truly mine

Not the Devil or his stupid laugh

Not his ink or autograph

It is I who has a hold on me!

If I don’t let go

I’ll stay My Own

I’ll be free while seeds are sown

Cultivating greater Heart

Strength to not get torn apart

To tolerate the deepest pain

Help others with their suffering

I can say I made it through

And I wish the same for you

By battling the Blackest Night

I’ve made it to the Other Side…