I thrive in You
I come alive
Through and through you feel me and feed me
Truth’s breeze rushes like a ghost through my broken-open soul
I will never go back
I can never go back
A shattered soul is how the light gets through
Never believed it before
but now I do
Oh, I know
Life won’t be anything close to perfect
Or some fantasy of mine conjured up in the wish-making world of the ego
Begging, grasping, crying out for control always and endlessly
A defeat for the ego is a victory for the Self*
So I let my battered ego lick her wishful wounds
While the Self grows strong and conscious
Through my very own humanity and suffering
I have you and you, you also have me
Without one another we do not thrive
We just stagnate and exist
You, thrashing around in some kind of empty Glory
Me, without purpose
But together we cut through cement like feathered blades of kelly-green grass
Impossibly yet entirely
Tell me — what could be more meaningful than the transformation
Of another being?
In this moment of strength I say
The suffering is worth it
May I remember this in my weakness and may you forgive me
And accept me in All Forms
And may I do the same for You
Bound as we choose to be by this marriage of Awareness
Bound
Only as we choose to be
And I do
*C.G. Jung quote