I feel like I’ve been broken open
Split down the center line
Sawed through with the Devil’s autograph
“Now you’re Mine.”
There is no more fight inside ‘cause I’ve fought and I’ve fought
And I’ve tried and I’ve tried —
But the Devil’s sword is so much sharper than mine
And he wields it so gracefully —
This Practicing Dark Divine
I am shaking now, trembling
Carved open like some great ravine
A chasm – the stuff of me spilled out
Tongue cut out
No way to scream
Haunted, Haunted by this imagery
Lucifer – seducing me
Where is the Other Side of God?
Where is my Mother’s Bosom?
Where is my protection from all of This –
People are so Blind
But I – I – I see
(In a way They cannot see
They Refuse to See)
Stuck with all this gut-wrenching disgust
As human beings are ripped from me
And I am only One person
Fighting my own Unending Fight –
To come to Wholeness
To journey through Night
To cross the Dark Sea and the Great Divide
To merge the two
And I have done this for You!
The Eternal You!
And now I cry out –
I can’t go on!
Please, please hear me
I plead, I need, I beg, I bleed
From the Silenced walls of my desperate soul
Devil laughing – I am broken open
His Ink pervades my soul.
His laughter echoes.