Double-Double

 

It was a pretty fucked up day

So I decided I’d go to In n’ Out

For an animal-style, protein-style, extra pickles please

Double-double

as if to say with oily glee

Fuck this day!

Mouth-watering, I was imagining my meat and sauce and cheese and…

Goddamn bus pulls right in front of me!

Shoves me all the way to the left lane

I watch my precious burger dreams evaporate

because I just do not have it in me to try again

The day has been too long

Stupid. Fucking. Bus.

So here I am

Venting

and eating the last of my coffee yogurt

 

 

What Else Is There?

 

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You tell me to trust —

Surrender —

And I try

But the memories of failure still live

Rejection burned in my mind

Why is Unrequited Love so easy to find?

Seems like the laundry keeps spinning

But it ain’t gettin’ clean

He goes after her, and she goes after someone else

Et cetera, et cetera…

You know what I mean

And so we go — just chasing the dream

Some kind of twisted fantasy

One disappointment after another

Another serving of Passionless Whatever

Oh, yes, another helping for me, please!

Plopped down on my plate like prison-cafeteria slop

You start to feel like you’ve tried everything

Putting yourself out there

Holding yourself in

Taking a date because, well, he’s nice

Refusing the date because he’s just…nice

But that Essence is missing

That thing that breaks a person wide open

So I ask You —

What is there to trust?

Broken open doesn’t often last even when it happens

Diamonds just turn back to dust

So my shaken prayer is this and always this –

Just let me Accept

Because really –

What else is there?