When you are conflicted about a decision, I always recommend taking out the external forces in order to truly get in touch with what it is YOU want. So, start with the question:

“What Do I Want?”

Take away the ifs, buts, shoulds. Take away the Fear, Worry, Care-taking of others (i.e. their feelings before yours.) In other words, if no one’s feelings would get hurt and if the worry about HOW to do it was taken away, what would you choose/decide/want?

Once those things are put aside, ask yourself again:

“What Do I Want?”

This should help clarify. Now, you begin the steps to get there.