Let me in, let me in.
You only thought I was dead.
But I have been here
burning deep deep deep in your soul.
I have been the Thing that has held you close.
No I never let you go.
When you dove down to the depths of your
Saddened, lost soul;
When you used and you used and you used
And you used;
When you used and you used and it went on like this…
I brought you – Ragged – back from the abyss.
And still you were Wild, you clawed and you cried
Screeching your threats, still – I stayed by your side.
You did everything you could to push me away –
Humankind’s hero – Sabotage of Self,
Oh yes how I know her, I know her so well!
She, forcing me to see the Ugly in you
Over everything else –
Making me see the pain of abuse.
Begging me to Condemn you
Like you condemned yourself.
Miss Sabotage has no idea who I am:
The Other Side of your soul –
The side you can’t bear to see.
(We all know how it’s easier to believe
All the Ugly Things.)
But I Live.
I glow, I reach, I rise –
Throw light on your pain, so you’ll learn to thrive.
I let you hate me and shriek as I stay by your side
You writhe til you Break and surrender your pride.
We hold on together til you’re down on your knees
Complete abdication, heart pouring out pleas:
A new cry from your lips:“Let me worship you, please.”
But I simply smile and help you to stand.
“Look down,” I say.
You hold your own hand.